Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Unsettled Heart

Tonight my heart is unsettled. Do you ever have one? An unsettled heart?

I suspect the answer is yes. If you do, then you know exactly what I am talking about. It usually hits around bedtime. It's like a pit in my stomach. Perhaps I feel there is still something that needs to be said or something that shouldn't have been said. I might feel like there is something yet to be done, a problem to solve, a situation to clean up. Sometimes it has to do with fear, sometimes guilt, sometimes shame, sometimes anger, and most commonly, worry.

When I was a kid I worried a lot. I worried about getting horrible diseases like cancer and cystic fibrosis (yes I know you can't "get" that now). I worried about going to bed because I thought I might be the last person--literally--on the earth who was still awake. I would actually stay awake all night, sometimes in tears, because I was afraid I wouldn't be able to fall asleep. I would worry about losing loved ones. I would worry about homework I had misplaced. I would worry about being too slow in athletics.

The difference in back then and now is that then, I didn't know my Savior. I didn't really know that He had my back. I didn't know that He was with me. I didn't know that His will for my life and the entire world are intertwined to perfection. I didn't know that I could run to Him and tell him everything and He would still love me. I didn't know that all of these things I worried about were important to Him, but meaningless just the same. I didn't know that. I mean, I knew...but I didn't KNOW.

Why didn't someone tell me? Well, they did. But you can't KNOW Christ just because someone tells you about Him. The only way to KNOW Him is to "get to know" Him. Talk to Him. Trust Him. Trust Him BIG. The more you do, the more you'll KNOW.

There is so much unrest in our world right now. We all know people who are out of a job. We know there are nations at war. We know the economy is bad. We know about divorce, abuse, scandal. We know about pain. We know we have messed up and will continue to do so day, after day for the rest of our lives. But if we KNOW our God, then we KNOW He holds the entire world in his very hands. Nothing surprises Him, nothing throws Him.

Psalm 121:1-8
I lift up my eyes to the hills—where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip—he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD watches over you the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm—he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.

He is THE maker! And He says He's got it under control. I believe Him. The Lord can always settle my heart.

17 comments:

  1. I love this post! I am guilty as charged of worrying too much. This is a good passage for worry: Matthew 6:25-27. Thank you for putting things in perspective this morning!

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  2. I love the scripture; it's one of my favorites.

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  3. My favorite verses ever. I am praying for you.

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  4. I totally have unsettled heart from time to time... it's a rotten thing to go to sleep with! That verse is a keeper though. You are so precious to share your beautiful and vulnerable heart with us!

    Blessings,
    Sasha

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  5. Thanks for the great and greatly timed reminder :o) Please let me know how I can specifically be praying for you. I LOVE you!

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  6. How goes the heart today? I often find that the next morning my/HIS perspective returns.

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  7. Another version says, "Shall I look to the mountain gods for help? No! My help is from Jehovah who made the mountains!"

    A great sharing post!

    Love!

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  8. I feel like I am always worrying about something, especially lately. I love your much needed reminder and the verse you have shared.

    Love you!

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